Time usually moves forward, minutes to hours to days to years but for us time is running backwards. We are down to weeks which will shrink to days and then to minutes and finally seconds. Years of living mostly together will end almost as abruptly as it started.
A friend of mine said to me, “You should go to the BoDeans tonight they’re playing at the Bird –Dcup will be there.” “Who is Dcup?”, I replied trying to remember her. I had seen a her a week or so earlier at a party. The fog of my memory sort of remembered that party. I listened to the Rolling Stones and saw Dcup for the first time but I put out of my mind because she seemed to be with someone else.
At the concert we flirted, danced, drank, spared, left together, had our first kiss and fell for each other. We had no idea that our life together started at that moment. What I also know, now, is that it is also difficult (at least for me) to pinpoint that moment when our marriage was done.
But don’t confuse the end of our marriage with the end of our relationship. The relationship has no end in sight. We have the children that will forever keep us together. Ultimately, we have our friendship. It is strong, happy, tumultuous, unique and real.
We are forever tied together. I am glad for that. Thank you for making it possible for me to pursue this next step in my life.
Comment by Blogger Formerly Known as DCup — May 6, 2008 @ 12:06 pm |
I think this is a great post. It really touched my heart.
I send you so many good thoughts. Having typed that five thousand fucking ways, it all sounds shitty but is not meant that way.
Comment by FranIAm — May 9, 2008 @ 6:50 pm |